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About This Blog


If you found this blog, it’s because somehow you ‘might’ care. In some curious way at least. I want you to know that I too really, really care. Wish I could articulate how I feel. When in doubt, when I feel out of place I always return to my principles and shelf my feelings. My weakness and strength is my inclination to think. To empathize. To come from a ‘feelings’ angle. And so, I experience anxiety, depression on an elevated level. Not good. Today, I have made huge progress learning how to assign a new value to the circumstances in my past that have allowed pain to enter my world. I am in the beginning of a walk with Christ. I’m taking the first steps to understand how he can really help. I’m careful because that’s how I process the many lies in life. But, the message of Christ, God is compelling and worth considering above all else. It’s tough being my own “God”..  I’m tired of trying.

I’m a happier, more focused person today.

I like it here, on this site. Here I can give away my thoughts, feelings. Stuff I can’t really express in the day. I hope I didn’t hurt you. And if I did, I am sorry. I didn’t mean to. It wasn’t my goal.

I have this blog because it allows me to vent. It relaxes me to write here. To express. And yeah, I hope you read it. I hope you find something worthwhile.

Lately, it’s been a lot of dark stuff. Sorta like a purging of junk. I’m very happy today. Fulfilled.

If you read my thoughts I want you to understand that this place is a repository of beliefs, thoughts, and feelings. I write about what happened to me. Please don’t hold it against me. I take responsibility when others don’t. The good and the bad. This blog is a tiny, yet profound piece of my life. I write about you, the past, the present. I express love and lust. Life is so beautiful. I can’t give that beauty justice.

I’m sensitive. I am honest with you. So if I get hurt it’s because it really does hurt when lies, deceit, manipulation are the foundation of an experience, a part of my life. I assign my souls energy to you and our experiences. I’m unapologetic about that. So, together we have to be the best selves. I promise to work on being my best although I will fall short and occasionally let you down. I’m sorry. Please forgive me.

Relationships evolve, take time. I promise to value everyone in my life as a person with a soul. Not an object or a target.

If you did read my blog, please let me know. Send me a message via my contact page.

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